hello lj!
i decided to create a new journal. i really miss writing...alot.
i was reading my old lj, and it made me jump back. i was reading about how i went to see lemony snicket's a series of unfortunate events and i thought that i saw it this past christmas...no, it was in 2004. time is flying by. its unbelievable. i couldn't help but think of the quote from ferris..."life moves pretty fast...if you don't stop to look around once and a while, you might miss it." or something like that.
since i last wrote in something like this, college happened.
my last entry was last march, so its been a year.
wow, what a year it has been. i've learned so much about myself...it has been such a learning experience.
i love lsu. last semester, i wasn't too crazy about it. i really wanted to transfer to franciscan (where i wanted to go always but never could). i applied, got in, and my parents told me i could go. at christmas break, they said that they just told me that to appease me, and i was really upset/hurt. but, i'm so thankful they didn't let me go. i love love love lsu now. im meeting so many wonderful people. going to franciscan wouldve have been good for me, but i think it wouldve closed off the door to meeting a wide variety of people.
i've changed my major four times. i guess ive just been undecided. i was history secondary ed, then sociology, then poli sci, and now im english. i always wanted to do english lit, but i just kept thinking, what am i going to do with a BA in english? i'm going to do what i have always dreamed of-hopefully go to law school. if not, ill be an english teacher, which i know i would love too. the only other thing i'm thinking about is working as an editor for a publishing company.
i love being here at lsu...thank god i have three more years. i love going to spanish moon for 80s night. i love just being in the quad. i love hanging out at ctk and all the people there. i dont think i could ever be so far away from my friends esp jude...wow this sounds cheesy, but life would be pretty unbearable.
katrina..wow. i think we're all still speechless. my city...is coming back strong. i never realized how much i love new orleans, as cliche as that is right now. it is so true.
last semester, i worked as a desk assistant in east laville. easy job, BAD hours...it was horrible.
over christmas, i worked at bath and body works. i loved it. i'm actually starting to work there again on weekends now. i really like the people there.
this semester i had two jobs. i quit both?!? i worked at a daycare for a month...hated it. i worked at the lsu public policy research lab...it was hell. never be a telemarketer. never.
i live at university house on brightside now. i love it! i live with megan hahn and two other girls...its working out really well. next year, im living with claudia, jill, and liz!!!
i lived with kristin last semester. she was a wonderful roommate and friend...i'm sad she is gone. i did not like dorm life at all, to say the least.
extra curriculars...i'm such a slacker now. high school ecs owned me...student council, ambassadors, stk, clc, nhs, emhcs...i feel like i can breathe now, but i miss being involved. next semester, it is happening.
i have completely rediscovered my faith. completely. i'm not saying i don't struggle with it sometimes; i know it will always be a struggle. from my junior year to pretty much the end of senior year, i was so completely apathetic, confused, and resentful. i know it is good to question things, but it was more than questioning...i started going to st edward and met someone who pretty much changed my view and beliefs on life and god. well, i know that god worked through him to get to me. i am so thankful for this change in me; i am such a different person. i feel content with myself for the first time in my life, and i have an overwhelming sense of peace in my heart. gods love can transform you if you are willing to let it. it is difficult to dive into something and trust, but its so worth it. i don't know who id be without it. my whole life, being the religion teachers daughter, i wondered why i didnt ever believe in anything. i think everything happened for a reason. i really believe that. i still doubt, question, and sometimes it scares me...but even though it doesn't always make sense, i know what i've felt in my heart, and i cant question that.
speaking of...tommorow is abbeyfest! yayy! i get to see laura!
wow. im so tired. i love to sleep but i have a hard time actually going to sleep. i had plans to do alot of things tonight..biology, a few applications...HAH. i am the master procrastinator.
spring break is coming. what to do? visit avi and courtney in TX, go to the beach...?? i have no money! NYC burned a serious hole in my pocket.
omg nyc was incredible. i need to make an entry dedicated to it. i need to live there for a few years. i really do. i will.
roblynn and i are getting closer, its really exciting.
life is really exciting. over the past week, i stressed and stressed and everything has worked out. i decided that im not going to worry and panic over anything anymore. ok maybe that was an overstatement...but seriously, dont sweat the small stuff.
i reallly miss bethany. and bridget, courtney, and julie. :(
i could go for some NOLA right now with the girls. mmm wine and jazz on frenchman.
i guess thats all for now. laura and rob are having a baby soon ahhh! her name will be eugenie.
i havent seen my sister and the children in forever.
i thought my relationship with my dad was getting better...and that i was forgiving him...well...sort of. i feel ok now towards him, but we really dont have a relationship...and i dont know how to fix it.
i'm ready for love. im ready....i needed the time ive had alone to figure out who i am...but im ready now.
"the work never ends...but college does." -tom petty i love it!
love kacie
